I'M NOT DISAPPOINTED

I'M NOT DISAPPOINTED

I'm not disappointed.
I came here on my own.
I can't even imagine
the way it might have been.
I'm waiting here for something,
afraid in case it shows.
I'm not disappointed,
but nobody knows.

I'm not disappointed.
I've had love and I've had care.
It was a long time in coming
as far as I am aware.
I had everything I wanted,
more than I could see.
I'm not disappointed,
what use would it be.

I'm not disappointed.
I continued to climb.
I knew at the start
it was a waste of time.
I couldn't even tell you
where it is now.
I'm not disappointed,
though I don't know how.

I'm not disappointed
now that I'm back.
When goodness came to me,
I still felt some lack.
There are much better places,
I have to assume.
I'm not disappointed
I can't find the room.

I'm not disappointed
she drew back from me.
It should have been expected,
but I couldn't see.
When I leave tomorrow
there will be no regret.
I'm not disappointed
that I lost the bet.